Nichts ist mich...

bigbadpetal @ 2005-06-04T21:10:00

2005-06-05T01:19:31Z

I talked to my dad for about 2 hours earlier.

He's gonna be ok for the most part.

He might be a permanent diabetic, but he'll be ok overall.

I'm glad I was able to call him, and I hope that me being in contact with him will help him pull through his problems.

Anyway, I think this is a good time to say that I have started a new journal. This user name is attatched to alot of bad memories, even if I delete entries, so I'm starting anew.

It sounds all whiney and emo, but this just reminds me of alot of bad things and well... my "darkness" and depressing stage, and I want to separate myself from that. Not entirely, of course. I think the feelings that I have had in the past have made me that much more mature and understanding of others.

However... it is the last week of school next week and I think it's time for some kind of start over... even if it is only a journal! Hehe.

God... this sounds so cheesey.

My new journal name is girlwiththeshoe.

No. It doesn't make sense. Then again, it's not really supposed to. It's just a name afterall.

I'll leave this up as a sort of archive or whatever, so if you ever feel the need to (I don't understand why though) it'll still be here to look back at my previous fucked upness. The new journal should be a record of my new fucked upness. ^.^

MUCH LOVE!
-Laura

http://www.livejournal.com/users/girlwiththeshoe

bigbadpetal @ 2005-06-04T13:03:00

2005-06-04T17:03:45Z

My dad's in the hospital.

Vote!

2005-06-03T23:15:19Z

I've been feeling that this journal is a little tired and I'm just plain bored with it. BUT, I feel like this is an excellent excuse to poll you people. Hehe.

Comment with your answer.

Should I start a new journal?
a. No. DON'T!
b. Sure.

Lol... that's about it.
If you have an idea for a new name for me, go ahead and put it in the comment along with your answer. Suggestions are VERY welcome.

Doooooooo.

2005-06-03T22:04:18Z

1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
2. I will then tell what song reminds me of you.
3. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be.
4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
6. I will tell you what color you remind me of.
7. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. Put this in your journal.

bigbadpetal @ 2005-06-03T12:19:00

2005-06-03T16:20:53Z

So.

My mom has said that she won't allow me to wear a flapper dress to prom as a junior. Isn't it sad? *tear* I probably won't even go anyway.

bigbadpetal @ 2005-06-01T22:45:00

2005-06-02T02:47:58Z

My journal updates are slowly becoming less involved and more choppy. Oh well. That makes it easier to read. At least I'm not pulling out newspeak on you all. Hehe.

(I <3 1984. Except the ending... You can't help but want the idea of "good" to prevail. I didn't like it, even though I know it's what fits with the idea the best.)

bigbadpetal @ 2005-06-01T22:09:00

2005-06-02T02:11:09Z

*shifty eyes*
I should kill them all.
(All = Holt school administration)

I'll take over!
AP courses galore for all!

*evil plotting commences*

bigbadpetal @ 2005-06-01T16:21:00

2005-06-01T20:35:49Z

Right.
So.
*fear*
Some 9th grade boy put a note on my seat... saying that I'm beautiful and that he's been madly in love with me.

People are dumb.

He might think I'm pretty, but he doesn't know what I bitch I am when it comes to stuff like that.

bigbadpetal @ 2005-05-31T21:23:00

2005-06-01T01:38:02Z

I am really upset.

I can't stand Holt right now.

And people are ticking me off.

*sob*

Even if they had an AP class totally worth taking that was available to me next year, I still wouldn't be able to take it because all of my schedule is going to be full of all this BS. Even if I only take one elective this year and one next year! I might as well take them both this year!

So here's what I'm thinking, while depressed beyond all reason.

Full Year Classes:
Honors English (c'mon... what else?)
Honors Trig (GASP! Laura?! In an honors math?! Yes folks, it's to make up for the lack of APage.)
German II

Isn't it sad that those will be my only two full year courses?

Semester Courses:
Drama and Theater (to take care of that pesky Fine Arts requirement.)
Human Genetics I (It's depressing that I may only have half a year of science next year.)
U.S. Government

OK. I've confused myself.
I'll try to tell you all about it later.

bigbadpetal @ 2005-05-31T17:09:00

2005-05-31T21:11:30Z

Ok.
I wrote like a sort of journal entry during chemistry.
I'm going to put it in here.
Cheers.

Ok. So it's a little small. Shoot me.

bigbadpetal @ 2005-05-29T19:22:00

2005-05-29T23:31:45Z

I'm going to go see Madagascar tomorrow with Alisa at NCG. It looks really cute, and I'm glad that she made the move for us to do something on Monday.

I really want to show up at Waverly on Friday, but I don't think that the office gave Mrs. Baker the message I left for her there asking her to clear it with them so I can get a guest pass on the grounds of the German Club thing that they're going to have.

WILL SOMEONE PLEASE TALK TO HER AND ASK HER TO CALL ME?! EEEK!
My phone number is 694-7482.

On Friday, I also believe that Amanda, Maura, Alisa and I are going to go see the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. That MUST be talked over.

Bitte und danke. ^.^
(Please and thank you.)

bigbadpetal @ 2005-05-29T18:58:00

2005-05-29T22:58:46Z

Alisa made me a new background, and I just want everyone to know that SHE did it. Yay.

bigbadpetal @ 2005-05-28T14:32:00

2005-05-28T18:34:15Z

COMMENT WITH YOUR ANSWER!
Do you spell the name of the liquidy tomato stuff that you usually use on french fries or hot dogs like catsup or ketchup?

I need to clarify this. I asked for how you SPELL it, not how you SAY it. From what I understand, ketchup and catsup are said the same way, but it's a variation in spelling.

bigbadpetal @ 2005-05-27T15:53:00

2005-05-27T19:58:30Z

I think this world owes me alot.
Do you know how many crises I've averted?
I'm like... a 16 year old saint.
Watch, I'll be made a martyr because eventually some crazy uber religious person will stone me to death for this post.

Saint Laura, Patron saint of the invisible.

I must download old Madonna songs.
I like "Like A Prayer"
I'm listening to a mix of it.

I have an icee, take that Crazy-Uber-Religious-Person-That-Will-Stone-Me-To-Death.

bigbadpetal @ 2005-05-27T15:24:00

2005-05-27T19:30:19Z

You Are Low Maintenance

Otherwise known as "too good to be true"

You're one laid back chica - and men love that!

Just remember that no good guy likes a dormat.

So if you find your self going along to get along...

Stop yourself and put up a little bit of a fight.

Are You High Maintenance? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

You Are an Exotic Beauty!

No matter what your ehtnic background, you've got a unique look

And your one of a kind beauty makes an imprint in every man's mind

You hardly ever wear the same outfit twice, and your hair is always changing

As a result, your look is always new and fresh - never outdated or stale

What Type of Beauty Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

I don't quite agree with that one. Maybe I don't look like everyone else, but my hair doesn't change... and I haven't got tons of different clothes to wear.

Just some quizes for fun.
I have a headache.
I'm GRRR.

bigbadpetal @ 2005-05-26T16:12:00

2005-05-26T20:13:12Z

This is worth a look at:

http://www.filthylies.net/images/sidenews/TroutScrubSmall.gif

bigbadpetal @ 2005-05-25T22:48:00

2005-05-26T02:48:08Z

People suck.

bigbadpetal @ 2005-05-25T19:03:00

2005-05-25T23:09:55Z

My rant for today.
I don't feel like rewriting it, so I'm going to put in what I said to Alisa.
MEIJER AND BOOBS!

irish_firegrl88 : Meijer has earned my contempt.

thebride07 : lol how?

irish_firegrl88 : they never have my fucking bra size in good bras

irish_firegrl88 : My mom was going to actually buy me a cute underwear/bra set (she never would before cause she said that nobody was going to see it)

irish_firegrl88 : but all they had were A's and B's

irish_firegrl88 : It's like they think that there are no larger chested teenaged girls that would want cute stuff

thebride07 : Awww *hug* I didn't know that having big boobs could be so hard.

irish_firegrl88 : Pfft.

thebride07 : lol just kidding ^_^'

irish_firegrl88 : You don't know the half of it, chicky.

thebride07 : You could always go to Victorias Secret, they're awesome.

irish_firegrl88 : Having smaller boobs can be alot easier than big ones

irish_firegrl88 : They're so effin' expensive.

thebride07 : True

thebride07 : For a minute I thought you were saying that your large chest was expensive. I was like, "Wait, whaaat?"

irish_firegrl88 : It can be.

irish_firegrl88 : I can't wear the flimsy bras

irish_firegrl88 : because it's not enough support.

thebride07 : Just do the whole women's rights thing and don't wear a bra.

irish_firegrl88 : you know how much that hurts?

thebride07 : It'd be cheap, easy, and comfortable.

irish_firegrl88 : uncomfortable.

thebride07 : Personally, I like wearing bras.. but hm.

irish_firegrl88 : can't run

irish_firegrl88 : go up or down stairs fast

irish_firegrl88 : plus, if you bump yourself on something, it hurts more

thebride07 : Hey, have you seen that commercial where there's a super hero on a float and there's a big black chick behind him? I think it's for universal studios.

irish_firegrl88 : No

thebride07 : Oh, well then that seemed totally random and weird. *cough* Sorry.

thebride07 : She has huge ass boobs and I was going to say "At least yours aren't as big as hers."

irish_firegrl88 : lmao

-Much later after a completely unrelated topic...-

irish_firegrl88 : And Meijer also never carries any shirts that I like.

irish_firegrl88 : They suck.

thebride07 : yeah

thebride07 : You could always try Target I guess

irish_firegrl88 : I guess.

Bascially, Meijer pissed me off because they NEVER have a decent bra that's good for me. And their shirts suck 98.7% of the time. Hmph.

bigbadpetal @ 2005-05-24T20:03:00

2005-05-25T01:34:33Z

smoked a cigarette
smoked a cigar
smoked a joint
been drunk
considered suicide
crashed a friend's car - golf carts should count. ;)
stolen a car
been in love
been dumped
been fired
been in a fist fight
snuck out of my parent's house
had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
been arrested
made out with a stranger
gone on a blind date
lied to a friend
had a crush on a teacher
been to Europe
skipped school
seen someone die
had a crush on one of your livejournal friends
been to Canada
been to Mexico
been on a plane
seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
thrown up in a bar
purposely set a part of myself on fire
eaten Sushi
been snowboarding
met someone in person from the internet
been moshing at a concert
been in an abusive relationship
taken painkillers
love someone or miss someone right now
laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
made a snow angel
had a tea party
flown a kite
built a sand castle
gone puddle jumping
played dress up
jumped into a pile of leaves
gone sledding
cheated while playing a game
been lonely
fallen asleep at work/school
used a fake id
watched the sun set
felt an earthquake
touched a snake
slept beneath the stars
been tickled
been robbed
been misunderstood
pet a reindeer/goat
won a contest
run a red light
been suspended from school
been in a car accident
had braces
felt like an outcast
eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
had deja vu
danced in the moonlight
hated the way you look
witnessed a crime
pole danced
been obsessed with post-it notes
squished barefoot through the mud
been lost
been to the opposite side of the country - If this includes north & south
swam in the ocean - AND NEARLY DROWNED! Damn ocean.
felt like dying
cried yourself to sleep
played cops and robbers
recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
sung karaoke
paid for a meal with only coins
done something you told yourself you wouldn't
made prank phone calls when you were younger
laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
caught a snowflake on your tongue
danced in the rain
been kissed under the mistletoe
watched the sun rise with someone you care about
blown bubbles
made a bonfire on the beach
crashed a party
gone rollerskating
had a wish come true
worn pearls
jumped off a bridge
screamed PENIS in public
ate dog/cat food
told a complete stranger you loved them
kissed a mirror
sang in the shower
have/had a little black dress
had a dream that you married someone
glued your hand to something
got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
kissed a fish
worn the opposite sex's clothes
been a cheerleader
sat on a roof top
screamed at the top of your lungs
done a one-handed cartwheel
talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
stayed up all night
didn't take a shower for a week
picked and ate an apple right off the tree
climbed a tree
had a tree house
are scared to watch scary movies
believe in ghosts - sorta
have more than 30 pairs of shoes
worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
given or recieved a lap dance
pushed into a pool/lake with all your clothes on
been told you're beautiful by a complete stranger
broken a bone..
been easily amused
caught a fish then ate it
caught a butterfly
laughed so hard you cried - Also, laughed so hard I threw up.
cried so hard you laughed
mooned someone
had someone moon/flash you
cheated on a test
have a Britney Spears CD
forgotten someone's name? - All the 'effin time.
slept naked
watched porn - Damn Cinemax late night. They should monitor that, you never know what 12 year old girl is flipping through the channels. *cough*me*cough*
French braided someone's hair?
grown a beard
belong to the KKK
slept with your bf / gf
slept with someone u werent going out with

OMFG. Another One!

2005-05-24T20:18:47Z

I've tried to get rid of my picture on my Yahoo profile, but it keeps telling me that it's not my profile to change. This is getting annoying, but it's a source of amusement to block out the usernames of these people and put the convos in the journal. I'm already pissed off today, and if this guy had been more suave about it all, I might've been nicer. But no, he had to be dumb. I looked at his profile, and I am defenitely illegal for him (and not even just by a year or two, which isn't THAT bad) and whatnot.

----: hello

irish_firegrl88 : hi.

----: how are you?

irish_firegrl88 : Pissed off. Why?

----: just curious

----:
why are you pissed off?

irish_firegrl88 : My new school is screwing me over academically.

----: :(

----: in michigan?

irish_firegrl88 : yes

----: you alone?

irish_firegrl88 : alone how?

----: at home

irish_firegrl88 : no. Why? Do you think I would invite you over?

----: no

----: but I wouldn't mind...

irish_firegrl88 : Well get over it. I'm 16 years old.

----: so... ;-)

irish_firegrl88 : So that's illegal, and I'm not some little slut that will want to get with a guy that tried to hit on her over the internet. Stuff like that is a waste of fucking time anyway. Plus, I'm already pissed, so acting like a pedofilic moron isn't helping your cause.

irish_firegrl88 : Good bye.

bigbadpetal @ 2005-05-23T21:08:00

2005-05-24T01:08:32Z

When you leave my colors turn to grey. When you're not around my colors fade away.

Sick.

2005-05-23T23:48:18Z

----: hello

irish_firegrl88 : hi

----: how you doin

irish_firegrl88 : er, ok.

----: you gotmic or cam

irish_firegrl88 : yeah, but I'm not going to turn them on.

----: ok

----: well let meknow whenyouwantto and ill send you a pic of me

irish_firegrl88 : ok.

----: makesureyou dont see my pic

irish_firegrl88 : huh?

----: in my profile

irish_firegrl88 : why not?

----: its my bigblack cock

irish_firegrl88 : ah.

----: 13 inches

irish_firegrl88 : I'm a virgin, so I'm not really interested.

----: you heard about us

irish_firegrl88 : about who?

----: black men

irish_firegrl88 : err... what about you?

----: our cocks are huge

irish_firegrl88 : Have you heard about jailbait?

irish_firegrl88 : Because I'm 16 years old, and that's more than likely illegal.

He stopped talking after that. Also, as soon as he im'ed me, I went and looked at his profile and immediately issued an "Oh. My. God." and sent Alisa to look at it. We both agree that it is indecent... not even in the adult profiles for god's sake! What if some likke 10 year old were to stumble upon that? Also, a 13 incher doesn't appeal to me... imagine having your first sex session with THAT. At this time in my very young and uneventful life, it doesn't appeal to me.

If anyone honestly wants to see that, for shits and giggles or... whatever, go ahead and ask. Lol.

bigbadpetal @ 2005-05-23T15:37:00

2005-05-23T20:10:27Z

I'm so fucking pissed.
I'm sick of history class. I love history, the teacher is ok, but...
WE'RE ALWAYS DOING THESE FUCKING GROUP PROJECTS!
I hate it!
First Off: When I'm around people, I find that I don't like them.
Second Off: When I have to work with people, I find that I don't like them even more.
Third Off: I'm fucking sick of doing all, or nearly all, the goddamn work.

We had to do a propoganda poster for Reagan as one of the last projects. I ended up taking it home. Aleasha helped me with it, especially the coloring and stuff, but the other two people in the group didn't even take notes, which would have been really helpful. Instead, they sat there and talked about whatever. They didn't give up any ideas (with the exception of coloring in all the vowels green...) or really do anything productive. I like these two people in general, but that really bothered me.

I don't care if someone thinks I'm smarter, or more capable or whatever it is that people feel put off... Maybe it's because I take charge, but that's because no one else will.

I care about my grades.

I'm sorry if you're one of these two people, but I didn't name you, and most of the people that bother with this journal wouldn't know who you are anyway.

I didn't say anything or at the time, because I know I'll probably be ok with it tomorrow. This IS my journal... my journal where I rant, and this happens to be the subject for ranting today.

Tschau!

bigbadpetal @ 2005-05-22T15:31:00

2005-05-22T19:31:17Z

Your Linguistic Profile:

50% General American English

25% Yankee

20% Upper Midwestern

5% Dixie

0% Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

BORED

2005-05-22T19:22:34Z

I'm bored, so I've decided that I'm going to start posting weird convos that I have. Of course, I'll put the people as annonymous. I'll cut it so you don't have to look at the bullshit.

----: hey maybe you know this...
BigBadPetal: ...
----: someone once said that a girl can stretch her pee hole and finger it
----: is that true?
BigBadPetal: that would hurt.
----: well like a pinky or something
BigBadPetal: it would still hurt...
----: how do you know
BigBadPetal: it just would, I mean... think about it.
----: it's said that a guy can do the same thing
----: but with something smaller
BigBadPetal: ...why?
----: rest assured I'm not trying that one

Maybe I'm wrong, but it seems like it would hurt to me.